Knowing everything..

When you think you know everything in the world, you get a shocking fact.. You're wrong.
If you believe in something, enought to make you go mad, then you can start learning the world, you start learning life..

Life as it's suposed to be, is not what you had in mind as a child.. A child thinks of the world, of life as a game.. I wish I still could, but I let my mind take over, and I let i guide me, to hell.. I'm not really a religious man, but I beleive that the choices you make, effect you're faith, you start beliveing, after a while, you start thinking about what you're life would be like, if you had someone to share it with.. You start looking at girls, but you soon realize, that this isn't as easy as it was.. You find a perfect girl, you get to know her, you become a good friend.. What you don't know now, is that you've already fucked up.. You're trapped, even though you don't know it.. You keep seeing her, she thinks youre an awesome friend.. Everytime you look at her, you get this feeling inside, the feeling of love.. She is the one, she's the one you want to share you're life with..

I don't think there is a reason for life, I personally believe theres more of a reason, in you're life..

You continue to see the girl you like, every day, every minute, you like her even more.. You even think she likes you.. You're wrong.. You start doubting about whats going on.. You talk to you're friends about it, they just keep quiet.. After a while, you start wondering, what you could say, what you could do, to make her, yours..

Should I tell her? What proof of that do I have, what reason my feelings can i give.. You don't want to lose her.. You're afraid if you tell her, she might say something, that will affect youre friendship.. The hasitation comes, you wait, and wait.. Untill, she says, she has found the perfect guy.. She trust's you, she tell's you everything.. She keeps talking about how wonderful this guy is, and its crushing you, you know now, this is not going to work out..

You try to be the good friend you've always been, you keep talking to her, meeting her, and in secret, you're in love with her.. You won't get out of this on so easily, without risking to loose one of your best friends..