My blog, just the beginning..

Well, welcome to my blog site thingy.. Don't really know why i'm making this, neither why i acctually feel like writing a blog, just came to my mind.. My thing for writing is that i really like to write something that has a meaning to my self, completly the oposite thing of what im doing at this moment.

I feel that if other people can read what im writing, they can have a chance of understanding my life just alittle better, not that i'm whining, bitching about how my life sucks, or whatever, i'm not an emo, im just an normal guy, wanting to share his life with someone.. I never thought that i would start writing this, telling people about my life over the internet, but hey, here i am, writing again..

Well, i acctually started writing things, poems, things that can mean something, for either me, or other people, a couple years ago, thats when i realized i can put my thoughts, and my feelings down on "paper". So thats when i started sharing my life, i guess.

- "In my mind, the only thing that matters is choices. Some say that life is hard, you define your life. Life's as easy as making choices, and going on without looking back to see if it was the right choice or the wrong choice."

That's my own little sentence, witch I keep in mind, it helps me when i've done something i probably shouldn't have done.

There's also this really good poem, that I will always have with me, it's world known, written by Marianne Williamson. It's called "Our Deepest Fears"


- "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

This in particullary, will "haunt" me for ever.. I first heard this in the movie "Coach Carter" and I was facinated about it. I started to look for it on the internet, books, everywhere.. Each time I heard that poem, just a littlebit more came trought, and made sense.. It's gone maby like, 2-3 years, maby more since i first heard this poem, and to be honest, i'm still trying to find out its true meaning.

To say it like this, i think people look at me as a strange person.. I feel my self that i am, not that i show it, but i'm really a pretty deep person.. I can go around, listening to hip hop, having a blast with my friends, and feel like im on top of the world, but as soon as i come home, sit down.. I start thinking, and that sometimes completly ruins my day.. I can start thinking about things that have happend in the past, things that i might think are to come.. I listen to all kinds of music, but i dont let other poeple find out that i listen to much more else than hiphop, and the badest sorts of trance.. For the record, i really like both of them, but i have my moments where i can need some quiet, calm guitar music..

I don't know if anyone is gonna read my blog, cause' im not gonna give the link to anyone.. But if you are to stumble over this, and you have come this far on your reading.. Welcome to a little part of my life..