My previous veiwing of life..

Life ain't as easy as you think, when you're 8 years old.
You don't really think about it to much when you are that age
Life as an kid seems flawless, no problems, no issues.
Everything is perfect.Then, you grow. And as you grow
The problems grow with you.

In a split second, you're life goes from perfect, to shit.
You really need some time to think about it, but when you first do
You realize, life as an grown up. Plainly sucks.
Friends ditching you, family going against you, you don't ever sucseed.
Everything comes crashing down.
You start losing your head, you go around
Thinking, just thinking about how your life could be, and not how it is


But then, you see something, something that will change you.
Change you for the rest of your life
After sometime, you understand, that what you have seen.
What you have discovered, you feel that everything is fine again.
You start to know it, you feel it in your body, you know this is right.
What you have discovered is love. And your true love, is standing infront of you.
After trying, for days, weeks and even months. You get to know her.
You start hanging out with her, you just seem to like her more and more.
You decide to stand up for your feelings. You think the right thing to do.
Is lay it all out, you feelings for the girl, and your dreams.
You sit down and talk, you say you have something to tell her.

As the friend she is, she listens, and you start talking.
Laying it all out, how you like her, how you want to spend the rest of your life with her
You love the way she smiles, the way she talks, the way she walks.
You look at her face, it's turning weird, you have never seen this before
When you're finished, silence. Total, frigthing silence. You are out of words
you sit and wait for her to say something. Then she start talking.
She says something about her self, she just keeps trying to avoid the talk
Something is wrong, you can feel it. Like something is going to come crashing down on you
Then the words, the small words, that would kill your soul.
I just want to be friends..


You don't know what to do. You storm out of the place, straight home
Laying down, looking at the ceeling, thinking about her. Can't get her out of your head
A tear comes down your face. In a split second, your life is back to where it all started.


Hell.